It may sound strange, but life here is so beautiful that I would gladly join if I hadn't already done so.
I feel like the sun has been shining constantly since I've been here. Sure, there have been days when it only rained, but the sun in my heart has never set. Even on the days when it was harder, I never lost the inner peace that makes me so certain I'm in the right place.
And in a way, a different light dawns on me every day, because I keep realizing something that I wasn't aware of before, or that I hadn't thought about yet.
There's really nothing I could seriously complain about. And if there's anything that makes life difficult for me, it's probably myself. I realize that I'm still far from living the way I would like to. But even that is no reason to be sad. I am on the journey - in the process of becoming. And I know that someone is walking with me and helping me. I don't need to be perfect - just ready to become a little more so every day.
Life in the monastery makes me happy and fulfills me. It's not what I always wanted, but it's what I was always meant for and made for.
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